Exhausted by the Ups and Downs.. My senior once told me that experiencing too many types of emotions a day will make one feel vV.exhausted. Hm.. think i've had a taste of that..
I ponder.. who was the one who gave such a cool look.. I merely didn't smile.. Is that considered cool? I don't rmb anyone saying that i have a dao face.. or i'm naturally cool.. Thus it means that i must attempt to be cool if i want to. And the irony is that i can't rmb me even trying to act cool on that day. If u really wanna compare.. I think that smug look/sneer was worse than me keeping quiet.. Whatever u want to say or complain.. i guess i'll just accept everything.. Everything.. from beginning to end has always been my fault anyway.. And yar.. everyone thinks that i'm coping better than u after that break.. But how many really understand how i had to cope alone in that pending period last yr? U have ur frens to help u recover, but i was alone to endure everything.. Slightly more hopeful that u rmbed my b'day, but yet disappointed with the celebration planned..
The key thing to my rotton attitude or watever u call it.. is that once the waiting period is over, things can no longer be resolved or mend.. I may seem rather mature and independent.. but afterall, i'm a gal who craved for her bf's attention and constant reassurances. Did i get any of those last autumn?
Absence can make the heart grow fonder.. but prolonged absence makes feelings fade and diminish..
Isit it better being frens?.. With no worries and no rite to be angry or jealous.. At least we'll be happier this way..
Jia You.. and start looking for distractions. I'm not worth thinking about.
22nd Jan.. That's the day i dread.. Dunno y. Maybe it's bcos u r officially leaving. I guess things went faster than we expected. Everything seems to go so smoothly.. Hope this'll continue. =)
To Zhu Tou.. Thanks for comforting and supporting me all this while. U r such a great fren to me.. i'll miss u lots when u are officially serving NS. Thanks for all the reassurances, smiles and tears.. I won't forget u.. ever. This midi..is specially for u. =)
The past week was sort of an emotion test for me.. Extreme Ups & DownS..
I'm going to look forward to CNY.. alot.=)
So many things happened in the past few weeks.. Can't rmb details though.
Yesterday had SL meeting at kent's house.. then went on lunch date with my darling Shu Jun.. It's such a coincidence that she's classmates with Mui Koon.. hahaX..
Things happened..
All i can say is..
Some things are just not meant to be..
Y hang on when the future seems so bleak?
I just want u to be happy.. and i want myself to be happy..
Instead of continuing to drown and suffocate in this misery.
And such things.. will come to and end sooner or later..
So y not end now?
Went to Sentosa in the afternoon.. The beach's nice.. the peek at the pink dolphins cheered me up greatly. My 1st encountance with real dolphins.. They are just simply too adorable.. heeZ
But all good things'll come to an end too.
yuPz.. Good luck to u.. to me.. to everyone.
